a decade under the influence

x__silence @ 2005-03-16T16:10:00

2005-03-16T22:13:22Z

Got into a mondo fight with Elin yesterday. Oh, life just keeps getting better.

And yeah, I'm a drama queen.

Fuck you.

x__silence @ 2005-03-12T21:46:00

2005-03-13T03:46:40Z

Unlinked my screennames today. No more Regan.

x__silence @ 2005-03-11T20:19:00

2005-03-12T02:19:42Z

Yeah, I hate you too.

x__silence @ 2005-03-10T17:28:00

2005-03-10T23:28:48Z

Yes. Glad to know you care.

I don't think I could have more sarcasm if I slapped you over the head with it.

x__silence @ 2005-03-06T16:05:00

2005-03-06T22:05:49Z

Death. No one leaves me notes anymore. My authorship speech for MUN killed me. I think maybe I'm done being Regan and writing in this LJ and being on MSN and being regaroni on AIM.

This twas edited.

Yes. I'm cool.

2005-03-05T04:04:36Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Regan....actually, it's Justine, but let's not get into that. K.
Birthday:	April 18, 1990. Coolest day of the year.
Birthplace:	Maryland. At the hospital that the president goes to that I don't remember. William something. <3
Current Location:	Kansas. It's as bigoted as you think. HA! That's so great.
Eye Color:	Blue. (yay)
Hair Color:	Brown.
Height:	5'6" ish
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	German
The Shoes You Wore Today:	My Croc sandals! YES! I'm SO COOL!
Your Weakness:	I dunno. Poking me in the stomach? Leading me on? shrug
Your Fears:	Spiders. How gross.
Your Perfect Pizza:	PINEAPPLE!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Um. I want to play the guitar. :) Or the cello. And get a boyfriend, but that's so shallow it's not worth mentioning.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol or lmao. Even though LOL is so dead. (i killed it)
Thoughts First Waking Up:	I want to go back to bed. OR: I hate you, Mom. Shut up.
Your Best Physical Feature:	Notttttttthing.
Your Bedtime:	Whenever I feel like it! GOSH! Actually, 10:30 or 11.
Your Most Missed Memory:	3rd grade in Nebraska. Gosh I was a happy kid.
Pepsi or Coke:	(diet cherry) Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Neither. Super Size Me = not eating McDonalds ever again.
Single or Group Dates:	Not like I've ever had either, so yeah. Single is more romantic, but group is cute.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Neither. Yuck.
Do you Smoke:	No.
Do you Swear:	Yes. Sorry if you don't like it, but I do.
Do you Sing:	Yes. Thank God. That's why I survive school.
Do you Shower Daily:	Except when I forget, yeah.
Have you Been in Love:	No. I'd like to say so, but no.
Do you want to go to College:	Yes.
Do you want to get Married:	Yes, eventually.
Do you belive in yourself:	No. At least not most of the time. But that's what you get when you're socially irrelevant like me.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No. Well, sometimes in the car.
Do you think you are Attractive:	No. Getting the theme of this survey?
Are you a Health Freak:	Hahahah. I just ate an entire box of marshmallow peeps. You answer this question.
Do you get along with your Parents:	Dad, yes. Mom, no.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Definitely. A whole lot.
Do you play an Instrument:	Yeeeees! Piano, harp. Cha.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No.
In the past month have you Smoked:	No.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No. But we're cool and say "you're on drugs" a lot.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	No. Because I'm socially irrelevant, duh.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	No. Curse you, Lawrence.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Not a whole box, no. But I looooove Oreos.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No. Gross.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Yes.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No. Never been dumped, never dumped anyone. Cha.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No. Never been.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Nope.
Ever been Drunk:	No.
Ever been called a Tease:	No. But I've been called a prude and a whore in the same day. That was interesting.
Ever been Beaten up:	Nope, haha.
Ever Shoplifted:	No.
How do you want to Die:	In my sleep, when I'm 400 years old.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	I dunno. Give me some time. I don't even know if I WANT to grow up.
What country would you most like to Visit:	England, again, and "bump" into Daniel Radcliffe. Then get married. Germany's this summer. WHOO!
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue or brown. Either. Or green. Actually, I don't care. Brown?
Favourite Hair Color:	Brown. Or black.
Short or Long Hair:	Not uber short but not uber long. Medium.
Height:	Taller than me, but not too much.
Weight:	Skinny
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	A lot. I guess.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

x__silence @ 2005-03-01T16:41:00

2005-03-01T22:43:23Z

Too lazy to update this and it's not like anyone reads it anyway...so...

Science fair projects are death. The Sims 2 University came out today and I'd much rather be sending my brother off to college and Sim Me gets his room, but I'm working like a diligent little girl. At least, my parents think I am. But I'm really updating my LJ. *devious*

Well anyway. Biology class is doom, and my Spanish teacher bitched at me in Spanish for not getting my progress report signed. *shrugs* I'll live.

being a drama queen.

2005-02-22T20:49:38Z

Yep. DEFINITELY out of the loop.

ALL my friends are going to a Green Day concert and not one of them bothered to say anything to me...

NO ONE talks to me anymore, at least not online.

I'm sick as shit and can't do anything, but still have to work on my science fair project.

There's always somebody ELSE...someone that people would rather be talking to/hanging out with over me. I just kind of...fade into the woodwork. But oh well. Guess I'll just have to get used to it?

Guess I'll just have to get used to LIFE.

...fuck this.

x__silence @ 2005-02-13T19:35:00

2005-02-14T03:36:05Z

Okay, DEFINITELY not feeling the love with all the non-commenting-ness.

I know my life isn't necessarily interesting, but STILL! GOSH! (napoleon style)

x__silence @ 2005-02-09T20:29:00

2005-02-10T02:30:08Z

Okay, somebody needs to help me fix this. I changed the background on my journal because the old one suddenly was illegal or something...but now all the tables are still gray, which is REALLY UGLY with the background. How do I change the color of the entry tables and stuff?

curse valentine's day

2005-02-10T02:24:25Z

Oh geez. My friend had a pool party for her half-birthday at the aquatic center...indoors, duh. The guy I've liked for...erm...two and a half years was there. Normally it's just really nonchalant between us, but today he was following me around like a lost puppy. I dunno if it's just Valentine's Day coming up soon, or wishful thinking on my part, or what, but he would not leave me alone! Anywhere I would go, he would follow, and he would always splash me (yeeeah, real mature, huh). Maybe it's just his nature. Maybe he's just like that. But he shouldn't act like this around me, because see what it does. See what it does to poor innocent gullible people like me. I start thinking things. And when I start thinking things, bad things happen. Like, I make a fool of myself...when he dropped me off at home and the front door was locked and nobody was home and so I had to use the garage door opener thing with the password. And my sidewalk is still slippery from the snow, and I went straight down. Oh gosh. It didn't hurt anything, just my pride.

Well...I guess I'll know if I'm actually right or if I'm just hallucinating...on Friday...Valentine's Dance. GREAT. *eye roll*

haggaflagga

2005-01-29T02:12:03Z

It's SNOWING!

<333333333 times a million and a half

I have a harp audition tomorrow....alkijvwalkwealkvwae. Have to go to Kansas City...in the snow. Ehhhhhhhhh. Then coming back here and the cool kids are coming over to work on the ensemble (this word is best said with a French accent). Mmmm yup.

Nobody's on AOL, because everyone (unlike me) has a social life. Oh well...I had to go to piano today to work on theory. Argh. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate rhythmic dictation.

Nothing much else to say...I have a B in Adv. Bio. because I got a C on one test. And progress reports are coming home. I'm absolutely screwed. So, if I don't write in here ever again, it's because my mom murdered me. Just watch for it on the news...

Alright. Well. Gonna go now...probably play the Sims or go watch the snow. Happy happy happy.

x__silence @ 2005-01-22T20:43:00

2005-01-23T02:45:06Z

Why do I NEVER have anything interesting to say?

I should just start copying and pasting my Open Diary entries into here. Ehhhh.

My last one was about how I cry too much, 'cause I'm all overstressed about high school enrollment. Blargh.

Somebody shoot me. I don't know why. I just need to be shot. My friend took a picture of me at the bowling alley yesterday (great fun). I'm standing by one of those shoot-em-up arcade games and I have the two pistols that you fire at the screen and they're both up against my head. I think it's pretty funny.

<3 I want to go take pictures of random things and put them on here. Mayhap I shall.

x__silence @ 2005-01-11T20:40:00

2005-01-12T02:42:27Z

Sooo, LJ got bought out.

The guy I like asked one of my best friends out. She said no, because she knew I liked him too. She's the latest one of three...no, four, of my friends to be asked out by him...and the first to say no.

Kind of puts a new light on things...

x__silence @ 2005-01-02T20:56:00

2005-01-03T02:56:33Z

Still have nothing to sayyyy....hmmm.....

xxRegan

x__silence @ 2004-12-28T18:32:00

2004-12-29T00:34:36Z

Decided against the new journal. Too lazy.

I PREORDERED HP6 TODAY! It's $29.99, so get ready to bust your wallets for that uberlovable (loveable? I HATE that word) wizard and all his friends. Wow, I'd make a good advertiser. Bahaha. 'Course, I preordered it from Borders, which means I get a whopping 40% off!! That makes it $17.99, if I remember correctly. Mmmm. I can't wait.

P.S. Borders can order the MCS CD for me....I didn't go ahead and order it today but I think I will. :)

LOSER!

2004-12-28T03:49:25Z

I'm going to make a new jourrrrrnal....

because I'm stupid and have too much free time....

Shall post when I get it done. IF I get it done.

x__silence @ 2004-12-26T13:58:00

2004-12-26T19:58:40Z

Merry Late Christmas!!!!

Hope you had a great one! Or at least a semi-great one.

whoa!

2004-12-23T04:03:11Z

WHOA! I, like, totally haven't written in here in FOREVER! Haley left me a note asking where I was....haha. That reminded me I have to write in here.

WHEE I just got done watching PoA. Daniel Radcliffe = major hotness extraordinaire. I think I spelled that word wrong......

I really have NOTHING to say except the guy I like is a jerk but I still like him and it sucks...blargh. I didn't try out for the 9th grade play and the director hates me now...I don't know why...

Well, nothing else to say. Merry Chrismuhanikwanzikah!

xxRegan

blargh

2004-12-07T23:14:28Z

YUCH....I'm sick today. I was bored this afternoon so I messed around with "Modify Journal" and I got the font to change!! However, it's still stuck in yucky Verdana on my friends page. Any suggestions?

Mayhaps I will be a lemming and create a new journal, too. If I can figure all this crap out.

ACH, my head hurts and my nose is stuffed up and I HATE COLDS.

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Adios.

yeah i'm cool

2004-12-07T00:46:21Z

HAHA yeah I haven't written in here in a freaking long time!! WHOA!

ONLY 19 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAA! *hyperventilates*

Um, yeah, so I have nothing better to do, so I'm-a gonna do a survey type thing.

Bold those that apply...

1. I am very tall (not really)
2. Some people can make me smile from just being in the same room as me (definitely)
3. I am a hopeless romantic
4. I love deep conversations with my closest friends
5. I worry too much
6. I hate dances (for the most part...)
7. I am a musician
8. I used to talk to myself (I still do, sometimes)
9. I still do Lol. (Only on the internet, not in person, god, I'm not pathetic)
10. I hate squinty teeth
11. Looking at old photos makes me sad
12. I want to be a writer (perhaps)
13. I don't get enough sleep (only on weekends)
14. I love my Mommy (Yeah, I do. I mean, she pisses me off, but I love her.)
15. I have a lot of favourite songs
16. Pretentious people piss me off
17. I love it when you know where you’re going but the person you’re with doesn’t
18. I cry easily
19. I quite like my teeth
20. I should be doing something else rather than this (like, writing my resolution for MUN)
21. I don't drink or smoke
22. I hate men who bitch like little girls (I find it amusing)
23. I hate when the rain makes my socks wet (nope, I love it, I go out in the rain in my socks...)
24. I can be obsessive about some things (no kidding)
25. I tend to scream at traffic
26. I like tight hugs and when people smile just at you being there (I LOVE hugs!)
27. I like it when people are happy because they make you happy
28. My hair looks the same as it did a week ago today (Uhhh I dunno)
29. I like sharing a moment of happiness with someone over apparently nothing (yeah!)
30. I hate it when you don’t understand someone
31. I prefer summer to winter (Nope, I'm a big snow girl)
32. I'm not a fan of swimming in the ocean (it's GREAT fun! go to Maryland! I love Chesapeake Bay! We used to go there every summer until I was 8 and we moved away...sigh.)
33. I am an optimist (Well, I try to be)
34. I think conformity is stupid (my very fav. vocab word is aberrant - deviating from normal or typical. How great is that?)
35. I love nicknames (and I have a freakin' ton of 'em)
36. I have never seen Titanic (HAHA, that movie was freaking hilarious!!!)
37. I am usually always on the Internet (quoth Elin - sadly)
38. The sound of running water soothes me (more so rain)
39. I hate it when people think that "crap" is a bad thing to say (I could care less...)
40. I hate when people think they are too good to say Hi or even acknowledge your existence
41. I wish I wasn't so shy
42. I will never dye my hair
43. My hair is naturally wavy
44. I wish I wasn’t so lazy
45. I wish I still talked to some people
46. When I look back on most of the things I’ve done I learn from my mistakes
47. I love vanilla scent
48. I always start giggling when I’m by myself when I think of nice/funny stuff people have said
49. I wish I exercised more (I tried, then I got lazy again)
50. My eye itches
51. I wish I had a photographic memory (then I would remember stuff...like, say, BIOLOGY.)
52. I miss being a kid (only sometimes)
53. There are some moments I wish I could have back (definitely)
54. I wish I were older even though I miss being a kid (sometimes)
55. I make no sense a lot of the time (well, some of the time.)
56. I am overly paranoid
57. I love music
58. I wish I was more outspoken in class
59. I hate people who agree with you to "impress" you
60. I don't believe cracking your knuckles will give you arthritis
61. Sometimes I keep feelings bottled up for sake of others
62. I often say I hate things in people, but do them myself and don't realize (Yup, I'm a hypocrite)
63. I wish too much
64. I love Christmas
65. I hope my family and I move
66. I hate feeling nostalgic
67. I've been told I act older than I am
68. I don’t like it when people don't leave messages (or worse, when they get your machine and then HANG UP, it bugs me)
69. I have very large hands (well, comparatively)
70. I wish people would grow up.
71. I am still a teenager
72. I hate people who say I'm annoying because I laugh a lot; that's a retarded reason
73. I hate people who complain about "indecency" on TV....if you don't like it...don't watch it
74. I like the feeling of knowing someone thinks I look really good
75. I'm perfectly happy sitting doing nothing for hours at a time if I'm with people I love
76. I'm a day-dreamer
77. Family meals are a rare occasion
78. Nothing would make me so happy as an A in math
79. Sometimes I enjoy sitting around myself for hours doing nothing
80. I hate gangster slang, like "homie" or "dawg" because it annoys the crap out of me
81. I love to make people smile/laugh
82. I like songs that remind me of being a kid
83. I don't like it when people hold grudges
84. I cannot wait to graduate highschool (Kind of)
85. I have a slight obsession with Spongebob (I like it, the movie was hilarious. I'm not obsessed.)
86. I hate the new season of She Spies; the first season was much better (Umm, what's that?)
87. I don’t really like hanging out with lots of people all the time
88. I wish I knew espanol (Well, I wish I knew it better than what I know from Spanish II)
89. Chocolate is my best friend (well, not my best friend, but it's awesome)
90. I'm too forgiving
91. I’m too critical</>
92. I think I smell fine (Haha, yeah)
93. About a fifth of my waking day is spent day-dreaming
94. I hate when you know people think you are up to something, and you can’t help act guilty even though you aren’t
95. I wish I had more money (!!!)
96. I want to donate money to charity
97. I think spiky hair on boys makes them incredibly hot (Nope, straight is better)
98. I like laughing
99. I love inside jokes (but only if I'm on the inside...funny how that works)
100. I am tired as hell (nope, just a little tired.)

Yeah that was fun!! HAHA! I'm a loser, but oh well. Well, ta ta.

x__silence @ 2004-11-24T20:02:00

2004-11-25T02:04:28Z

Whee. It snowed here today. 6 inches.

Regan = very very happy.

Oo, and I'm listening to Christmas songs on WMP. I'm such a cheater!! You're not supposed to listen to Christmas music until after Thanksgiving. Gimme a break, it's tomorrow.

quizzes stolen from hay-lay

2004-11-25T01:49:11Z

You are Elizabeth Bathory. (The bloodcountess)
Legend tells us that you, this very rich,
beautiful and high born woman tortured and
murdered some 650 young women and bathed in
their warm blood to keep yourself beautiful.
In some stories, it is said you have drank thier
blood as well. You were a sexual sadist on a
grand scale.
Ah vanity is your downfall. For shame!

Which Imfamous criminal are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
errr yeah, that's a little scary.

You're Marilyn Monroe!

What Classic Pin-Up Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
hahahahaha.

Happy: You can't get any better. You're
where you want to be in life, you have someone
who you care deeply about, and you have grand
memories to look back on. You can say that
you're high on life, and that may be an
understatement. Keep that trend, some of us
need to be happy.

What Does Your Past Say About Your Present?
brought to you by Quizilla
yeah I guess so. I could be a whole lot worse off.

Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.

What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
brought to you by Quizilla
haha definitely

SWEET TEEN!!! Yes you are a teenager mmmm from 13
- 19 quite a little rebel haha just kidding...
You think as a teenager, you see everything
quite simple, soon you will realize it is not
that simple. In my opinion you look at things
in a very beautiful way. =)

. What is you inner age?
brought to you by Quizilla
Not sure I agree with that one. I don't quite see things simply. Buttt, quizzes don't know all.

Definitely! Someones gotta crush on you! It's
Obvious that this guy likes you, so stop
doubting it! If hes a little shy and hasnt said
anything, maybe you should be the one to make
the first move (If you feel the same way of
course). If you dont feel the same way, and he
has already told you that he likes you, tell
him how you feel in the nicest way possible,
after all he was brave enough to tell you.

Does He Like You?
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Hehehe. I wish....:(

you're still you

2004-11-21T05:26:07Z

Josh Groban is my god.

Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine
Your face I've memorized
I idolize just you

I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you

You walk past me
I can feel your pain
Time changes everything
One truth always stays the same
You're still you
After all
You're still you

I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
And I believe in you
Although you never asked me to
I will remember you
And what life put you through

And in this cruel and lonely world
I found one love
You're still you
After all
You're still you

akjnweknvawlknewv

2004-11-19T02:12:30Z

Hung out with him almost all of third period. Helped him with typing something or other, 'cause he types like crap. :) We had funnnn. He makes me laugh sooo much, I love it. We also found out that we're going to be in Computer Apps together next semester. :) Wheeee yay!! And we've already made a pact to sit together so that I can help him. :) I'm feeling very smiley.

Nnnnnnnnnn. I like the letter N.

Yeeeah, so. Not much else to say. :) I didn't try out for the play. Someone hates me for it. I don't really care.

Oh boy!

Life is so wonderfully interesting.

-Regan